So after much consideration I’ve decided I want a friend that’s a girl. I don’t have one. I have acquaintances. I want someone of my gender to spend time with. I used to have this and took it for granted. I really do miss those days. It used to be so easy before my social anxiety decided to run my life for me. I want to take it over but its proving to be a difficult task. It seems like as soon as I meet a really awesome girl I freak out and scare them off or I get scared and get out of it. It is really a sucky situation. I don’t even know where to start. I feel like everyone’s too good for me. People everywhere I go have friends and people to, you know, just do stuff with. I want a fun girl type friend to do stuff with too. I feel left out of the fun. I mean don’t get me wrong my boyfriend is awesome and I love doing stuff with him but I want someone that isn’t such a boy. Jeez, I’m needy.